He listens to what I say

Me, here, again, just putting some thoughts in a very non-organized or planned way. 

Waiting to talk to my Canadian in a few minutes... thinking how it is good to have someone that pays attention to me, listens to what I say and seems to value me.

I know, I know.... I should not create expectations especially given that we live soooo far apart, that we've seen each other in person 3 times (not just 3 days... but, again, 3 times) since we've met 8 years ago...

Have to pause, cause I hear his "pling" calling me :) He'll call in 5 min!

I'm here writing but I don't really know what to think about him and me. I just feel good when Im with him. I feel he has a lot of the things that I value in a man too... And honestly I don't think I am crazy in love. Which is good. I was hurt so bad the last time, I keep thinking I should act differently... but can we really? Move away from the way we are?

The truth is that from my past relationship I've learned that I do want to be with someone. These past month, however, when in random contact with the Ex, I see that he brings lots of feelings in me. It's a rush... a need to be with him... but at the same time a terrible feeling of insecurity, being inadequate, doing the wrong thing all the time, feeling happy, anxious, than wanting to cry. It's too much ups and downs.

 1:11 later... In summary. The Canadian makes me feel good. happy. he makes me forget about everything else. I feel safe. I don't worry. Talking to him makes me feel light and puts a smile in my face. He tells me he misses me and I feel it's true. I miss him too. 

Remember that feeling. It's great. It's what I want and deserve.

No more feeling like the Ex makes me feel. I want to be and feel loved. Its so good to finally have someone that makes me feel that way! 

Im sure the Universe will conspire for us to be together if that's the right thing. In the meantime... I'll enjoy as I can this way that he makes me feel :)

My impression of Canadians was that they were the nicest people I've met... And they are nice indeed. Still think that. But I am beginning to think that it was actually This Canadian that was the utmost responsible for it.

Love this feeling. Seems to be the right one.

Can't wait to read this some time from now... (talking about not creating expectations... right?)